Even among chaos and disorder, in time, or however you define the linking of moments, patterns emerge. The peaks and valleys might not be exact replicas but familiar enough to mobilize strategies to protect or perhaps open vulnerable aspects of who we are, ready to evolve.

The key for me when adjusting dosing with insulin and fuel is balance & timing. Depleting my tissue of insulin (different than IOB) PRIOR to sensitivity from exercise is critical. I actually love it when I see a minimal bump up in glucose in that first hour.

That exposure underneath, a violation of structure, and even previously held boundaries and protection. There is a nuance of safety removed allowing things to surface we might, or we might not want to admit.

Just a short way down the beach a couple was jumping in the waves at sunrise together. They yelped in joy and hesitation at the brisk temperature of the water. They laughed and embraced, celebrating their efforts.

Get curious, what can you shift to replenish? You know the answer to that question better than anyone. If it’s not obvious, perhaps your just out of practice in the asking. Sit in stillness, it’s there, the clarity.

Hair down but under layers sticking to her skin due to the sweat. Her upper arms glistened as the camera spans into her mental ward cell. It is gray, all gray, cement gray. The light let in from the small window illuminates sweat glistening on her shoulders and upper arms. You hear her passion, it’s not effort, there is NO strain in her breath, it’s pure purpose, controlled and focused. There is no force...

I know the details of diabetes and adventure as well as almost anyone on this planet. Diabetes is NOT my limiting factor.

Perhaps today you ask yourself what you want, deeply. Are you waiting for “proof” to think it is possible? Are you waiting to see something present before you to believe? Is that working?

Clinical trial time with fellow T1D!

One comes to understand they have spent a lifetime looking outward to feel fully. They have exhausted resources, relationships and reality seeking what they carried with them each step of the way.